relationships do or do not change a person

Recently I had a very interesting conversation with a good friend. After a disastrous break-up, he is finally over her and he is feeling well and strong. At least this is what I felt coming from him. But one thing which really caught my attention throughout our conversation is that he believes that after 9 months with that girl, he is not changed at all. He strongly believes that she did not influence him at all during their relationship. Apart from the awful break-up, he truly believes that nothing has changed while he was with her.

This made me think... Is it possible that after 9 months with a person (in my opinion, long enough for one to leave a print in one's life), there is absolutely nothing in one's behaviour to remind of the ex-partner?  Is it possible to go through relationships without being changed by the partner whatsoever? And if this is possible, does this make you the stronger "half" that is changing the partner? How can one cope with such a responsibility?

When it comes to relationships, change or be changed - which one is the less painful and more rewarding situation?

graduated.

Finally graduated the masters. But... Where is the feeling of completion I really wanted and needed? Where is the satisfaction I expected? Is this how it should be?

I have noticed that over the years, the completion of an education cycle does not bring a bigger joy. Just, maybe, a release of stress or just a sigh of "It's over now. Finally". In kindergarten, we would feel like we grew up a bit and we would look down on the freshmen. After primary school we would want people to trust us more (we are not babies anymore, nor in kindergarten). After secondary school we would think we have such huge life experience we could write books. At the end of highschool we finally "begin the life" - now we really demand the people around us to believe that we are mature enough to make our own decisions. Decisions which usually lead to disappointments. After a master... what is there left?! We can make decisions, we are trustworthy, we can LIVE as we boast to everyone... But.. Is there all there is to it? Is this adulthood? Having yet another diploma?

Where does the satisfaction go and, more important, is adulthood overrated?

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and here i am thinking that i cannot even express my thoughts properly.. :))

aurora

wish i saw the aurora borealis. ha ha.. right. keep dreaming about that one..

snowing

i kindda missed the first AND the second snow..  feel like a dum-dum.. :)) if i didn't see it that means it didn't snow :P

today

i don't like myself. feel like i am in a very weird situation. i want something but i get something else from wanting something else in a previous stage and i don't want it anymore. and i am tired of myself and i hate too many discussions and i simply want something else. => if it didn't make any sense for you then you know why i do not like myself. for me it makes sense but i do not like the situation now. *sigh* am so stupid at times..

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when friendship looks like a leaf in the wind, all you can do is hope that someday the wind will stop.