today

i don't like myself. feel like i am in a very weird situation. i want something but i get something else from wanting something else in a previous stage and i don't want it anymore. and i am tired of myself and i hate too many discussions and i simply want something else. => if it didn't make any sense for you then you know why i do not like myself. for me it makes sense but i do not like the situation now. *sigh* am so stupid at times..